brain dump (16)

​- shorter brain dump post. You should go check out my last post!

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Feels very very bad right now. Like I just feel this feeling of wanting to go out and have fun and live and not being able to like a Prsion in my own mind. It also feels like especially in therapy that I have to prove how I’m feeling like I don’t have a valid reason or that I need something more generic to get help. It’s again the whole feeling of thinking no one understands. Because it feels to the point where I just am expected to make shit up like no one died no I don’t have crazy trauma yeah I have a bad familt and stuff but all the things I’ve talked about in here and stuff is the shit I’m dealing with it’s all in my head and it’s so hard to explain. And I get very brushed off and people just like therapist just seem that I’m okay rhat I have to always prove I’m sad. Even now I feel like my therapist doesn’t understand how bad it is even though she says she does and in my opinion is why I’m here it’s not her fault. I have something that’s hard for people to understand and hard to explain with past trust issues and a hard time opening up. It just sucks because once again I feel like no one is able to understand and help me. I feel like I just have to keep going through this and I hate it so much. It feels like an endless battle that no else in my life is going through. And it sucks.