brain dump (8)

​I feel like everything is getting worse. It was starting to feel a little better. But now I can even go to school because it triggers me so much. I’m really worried. And I feel like I can’t handle it anymore. My panic attacks keep getting more severe. I don’t feel good and before I knew that it was temporary now I have no motivation at all to keep going. Nothing makes me happy and I feel so much worse. I don’t know, my mind is just too fast right now. And I keep getting headaches. And now because I mentally don’t feel good I physically don’t feel good. I don’t know what to do right now. I can’t keep going to school and I have a feeling I just can’t keep going. It feels like everything is against me right now. And I’m just scared and now I feel numb and depressed while before I was feeling panicky. Now my mind is telling me, there’s only one way to fix it. I’m can’t even consider this as doing my best in my worst. Because I just feel. I don’t know it’s just getting worse.