01-01-24

​2023 was honestly a great year I made so many memories and I know the ending wasn’t the best I went through some hardships and it was probably the worst storm at the worst time of my life so far I still have so much to learn. I feel grateful for all I have and sad for all I could of but there’s no use in worrying abt a loss that was never supposed to be mine in that time my time is now and soon I hope everything will be okay and the new beginning I was longing for and hoped for will come now. Patience is my hardest weakness and it is such an important virtue. I’m tired and angry and sad and I’ve learned that no one but urself can get u out of a hole and sometimes not even that the only thing u can do is wait out the storm u can’t stop the rain from pouring or make the clouds go away. Things I’ve learned in my skills for poems and lyrics and rhyming my skills for writing and most of all my passion that kept me going my dreams in the future the things I want to be the things I want to chase every single day one day I’ll be there I’ll be there sitting in my dreams. Living my daydreams. I’ll be it. But right now I want to focus on me I will surround myself with the people who make me feel happy and cool with the people who make me feel confident even in my ugly moments. I want the people who feel like family the people who make me feel sososo happy. I don’t care about popularity it’s something that seems cool and I would love it but my happiness and people are so much more important. I don’t care about being beautiful to attract boys I care abt being beautiful always to attract people who make me happy to create happiness for myself. I try every single day even when some days seem so much harder. And these things may sound cliche and that’s because the are everyone walks in there own shoes but sometimes those paths are shared with other. For all the shoes in the world there is one road everyone has walked down. It may different it may be older or newer but it’s the same road. And what I can say is so many more are going to come this isn’t the first storm and it won’t be the last all I can say is they can grow weaker and I will grow stronger every single day if I just try. I know the people that make me happy will be here I know the pretty I am will appear to attract the right people I know I will glow up in every way possible be it looks and memories and thoughts and skills and smarts. I wills show everyone that even though I was behind the race I can still win.i love u and I love myself happy Newyears. 💕💕