brain dump (21)

​like I said yesterday it’s beginning to become harder to write. I’m not sure why but how I’m feeling has started to become harder to explain and understand.

I feel like an alien right now very different. I feel very sad but I also do feel a little bit better maybe it’s the medicine maybe it’s because i tried to start praying. I’m not sure.

It’s definitely been very tough and painful. And I do feel very lonely. I feel everything i worked for has now disappeared. 

I’m just at a loss right now. I really feel I’ve just lost everything. And I just hate everything, where I am, how I feel, the time and everything.