12-18-23

​yea I felt kinda good yesterday and a little confident but I knew it wasn’t gunna last I have this horrible disgusting feeling. I keep getting into trouble and I don’t know what it is I have this big big people pleaser thing but I do get in a trouble a lot but when it’s from a teacher or admin it makes me rlly panicky and not good at all. Like I can’t stop thinking about it. Like the way he looked me in my eyes just pure anger. Like I don’t forget abt that kinda stuff not at all I don’t ever forget and it’s like everyone is giving me a hard time but I get it. Bro life throw everything u got at me cause I got nothing to lose but to gain. I’ve climbed through fuckifn hell to get this far again and im ready to do it all over again to prove something to all these bitches that yea fuck I didn’t deserve any of it I don’t deserve any of it. But did I still get it? Hell yea. Why cause im better and stronger then all these fake bitches bru. I can’t stand it. Them fake scars bru like im acc so depressed but that don’t make me me that don’t define shit im me. And I don’t give a fuck I rlly shudnt even when I do. If u don’t like me the fuck do I care cause ur rllyfucking missing out. And wanna get mad at me when u don’t know shit ab anyone els